Today I sat in Au Bon Pain in Harvard Square people-watching, drinking a mammoth iced coffee and feeling melancholy, until I was interrupted by someone I vaguely remember from camp stopping to say hello. That reminded me of the ways Boston is different from other places, and how deeply you know a place where you've spent years there. Despite the melancholy, it's been a good few days: lots of feline face-time with Squid and her new sister Hermione, walks around new J.P. haunts and old Cambridge haunts, a sail on the good ship Vim! and tonight hard-boiled eggs at a hipster/grad student bar and the kind of last-minute hospitality that makes you feel like things are okay after all.
And maybe they are, but it's hard to decide. My great-aunt's late-life husband, Ruskin, died last night of a heart attack. I want to post a terrific picture I have of him in a bright yellow sport coat, taken only three or so weeks ago at the family reunion. He was 93, but spry enough to play badminton. I never knew him well, but I did know him to have extraordinary verve and good nature. As I understand it, he died at a luau, enjoying the food and entertainment, surrounded by his family. I picture him wearing a lei. It seems sad, and absurd, and maybe the perfect way to go.
Oh how I wish I could be there to help you through your melancholy. I've been having a bit myself, but of a different variety.
ReplyDeleteThere's a cute picture of us from Squaw. When my mom saw it she said "What a PRETTY girl Sarah is." I agreed. See you really soon!
Love,
Me
Mary and I were talking about how funny-sad is her favorite mode in poetry, and I think something I go for in my fiction a lot too. Sort of like melancholy-happiness. We came up with a word for it, but I don't remember it anymore. The image of Ruskin in a yellow blazer and lei is so funny-sad. I want to write an elegy for him. But maybe you should.
ReplyDeleteI wish you were in Bloomington where the sweet corn is ripe and animal skulls peek out of the vines covering my chicken coop. But maybe I wish more we were sailing along the Charles together. I can't decide.
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